Love really messes you up ...

People always say :

'It's better to have love and lost ,
than it is to have never loved at all'


I'm starting to disagree with this, having loved and lost myself i can tell you its no fun.
I mean yeah during the relationship i was happy whilst it was good , but it also mad me so sad.
And now ... after the break up ( which was like the worst ever ) i feel so screwed up .
To get back into the dating 'game' is so confusing.
Like is it okay to say i love you ? No its not , or you seem crazy
Im used to constant texting , but now that seems too forward ?

I keep thinking about this one guy , even though its not going anywhere , i just cant stop.
but then i will , and just cant be bothered , im so confused by this crazy thing called love..


im sorry if this did make any sense , i stopped any started for an hour

x

Long Time ?

So So So .. New years and so good :)
Stories from that night are going to be crackin' me up for months :)

Its been snowing :D
my drive way is like FULL of snow :) i have to go shovel it all into a corner so my stepdad can go to work tomorrow :L so gunna make a hugge snowman :)

Perfect ..
What is perfect ? Is it possible ?
Everyone has at LEAST one flaw right ?
If i could design a perfect guy i'd be so happy :L it would be great ,

The Guy :)
* He'd have to be able to make me laugh , not with jokes but just make me so happy a giggle comes out
* He'd have to have that something that makes him stand out from the rest , that indescribable thing
* He'd have to have the right balance between Mature and Immature , so he's fun but not annoying
* He's have to be talkative , spend hours chatting about absolute shite :)
Looks ;)
* He'd have to be tall enough for me to where heels and for him still be taller , but not too tall otherwise i'd feel short
* Hair - Long enough to play with but not too long, also would have to look good  but without him knowing , like when guys complain when its not 'right' but it looks so nice
* Eyes - i have this thing about piercing eyes , like a bright blue or a deep green , ooft
* Body - you cant go wrong with a nice bit on tone can you ? :P but not too much because then their not cuddle-able :L

Ahh wouldn't that be lush :L

Love , Love , Love , i want your love

Romance ............. ahh im a sucker for it .
Even if its not towards me , it makes me go awwww.
Even if its someone i like , towards another girl , it makes me go awwww.

2010 is coming , FAST
i must start thinking of some resolutions .

2009 where :
*Do well in GCSEs    = yeahh i suppose
* Size 8 prom dress    = Oh yes :D
* Spend the year with max   = hmm almost
* Not to lose anyone when i go to brock   =  oops



2 out of 4 is good ? ahaha



hmm im thinking ... this isn't working lol .

ANYWAY - sherlock was ammmazing :D defiantly go see it =]


i have a feeling i will post a biggie later :)
x

Hello Emma :)

Just popped on for a quickie ... quick blog that is :P
ahh today  has been good :)
Started off round my nans, absolutely hilarious .
Nan and Gramp started kicking off in a joke way about us ( me and my sister ) not sending a merry christmas text , so immediately we both sent one .
I got a reply:

From Nan
: Sod U !!


ahh i love her :)
it was really good to Sian as well ( oldest sister ) because i haven't seen her in a while, its her birthday on Tuesday so we have arranged to have a girlie night Monday and go see Sherlock Homles on the Tuesday , which i am really looking forward to :) i shall post a review :).

Any way after my Nans , Ceri and I ( another sister ) went to see Jason ( my little brother) and his mum's , which was really nice , even though to be honest i got beat up by a seven year old :( shameful i know .

When we finally got home me and mum decided to whack out 'Very Annie-Mary' . A beaut welsh film set in the village of Ogw ( pronounced -Ogg-ooo ) Ah i love it , Joanna Page( stacy from G&S) stars in it as 16 year old Bethan Beaven , who dies at the end :'( both me and mum were in floods of tears, then to cheers us up we watched Rob Byrdon live DVD tour , ahh he's amazing :)

Now , Honest To God , i'm absolutely knacked , so i'm off to gwelly :)

Hows the online accent :P

Love x

Wait ....

Huh .. Christmas is over ? Gone ? ah when did that happen ?
I suppose when you dot get out of bed till 11 the day tends to go faster ? ahah

All round good day i guess , as good as spending the whole day with my sister can be :P.
I got an AMAZING dress , well i say 'I' my sister did but she didnt like it ' wasn't her thing ' pfft any way we swapped dresses and tbh i think i got the better deal. It fits perfectly and the parentals said i looked stunning , but then they have to say that don't they ?

I hope my 3 readers had a good Christmas too :P ahah

Gavin and Stacy made my day :) but it me in a lush mood , although i did start thinking in a welsh accent dammit . Which reminds me i must nag mum to take me and her back to the valley's for a little bit at some point :D i miss all my family up there , only see them once or twice a year. Some i dont think ive met to be honest , there is 47 cousins at least :L not counting aunties and stuff :L

Doctor who was Fittt as well , i loved the BBC advert as well with the reindeer , didnt david look b-e-a-utiful :P

ahhh i must go gotta be at my nan's at 11 :O
NIGHT :D


P.S Tom and Steve ... i'll allow one welsh crack each ;) as it's Christmas :P

Isn't it funny

I was just helping a friend create a blog for herself ( shout out to Fiona :D ) and when telling her to click create a blog i used ' right-hand corner' as part of directions .
Why is the 'hand ' bit there ? i mean its not actually the right hand is it ? its the right side , but no one ever said Right-side corner ? hmmm confused

Loads of people are starting to get blogs now , hence i joined in and put my account to use for the first time. I wonder if it will be the new social network ? Or is facebook to strong nowadays .

So Finnaly Christmas is litary just round the corner :) , ive pretty got my xmas starting tomorrow as well :)
Plan from now until New years :
23rd - Meet up with girls for meal and swapping prezzies
24th - Party at ours for family friends
25th - Xmas at mums
26th -  Boxing day at Nan's
27th - free day
28th - Sister Birthday , so see her
29th - Free day
30th - Shopping in southampton with the girls
31st - Party Party time :D


ahhh its gunna be a good few days :)

We got a new puppy last night :O oooo she's so cute !
I say puppy but she's already 6 months old, she was my sister's but Rhiann couldn't look after her due to work and stuff so we have adopted her :) Honestly she is the biggest fluff ball ever. So Lazy though aha , shes spent all day asleep on my bed :L
If it wasn't for the huge sighs now and again i'd think she was dead. illl upload a pic soon :D

I MISS YOU THOMAS , for those of u that dnt know who tom is , he is the guy thats been one of my best friends for the past 4/5 years and hes alllways been there for me in some way or another . We go to different colleges now but i am making sure we do not drift at all . Even so im forcing him to get a blog on this site :P
ahaha we still have to have a Star wars marathon :P


might be back later :) x

Love Actually , is all around <3

Love Actually , is one of the best films to watch just before christmas , if you have a special someone or even if you don't. I think it just makes everyone happy , and excited for christmas .
For me , watching it last night ( on ITV) , made me think about the guy situation , it made me want to just blurt it out and tell him that I kinda like him . But then I couldn't make up the confidence . Ahh wouldn't things be so much simple if you could read people mind ?

I woke up today in such a good mood :) , christmas is neaaaarly here :D , i can't wait.
On christmas eve , were having a little party round mine and one of my closest friend is coming round and i havn't seen her in ages ! so i cant wait for that :) and then theres new year , ahh i CAN'T wait , should be so good this year :)

Went on youtube this morning and found this ... i love it , now im in a even better mood :)